The WIllowing Tsukushi

aku sudah berpindah

2010-02-08T04:01:00.001+11:00

the owner of this short-lived blob is now in http://naysez.blogspot.com ^_^ link her!

Let me take care of it..

2008-07-17T22:01:00.001+08:00

I am in love with u.and there's nothing i can do.i could make it go away,but for now i won't.u keep reappearing in my mind.i want to be able to see u,n hear everyday now.i am sickening myself with all these but it made me laugh.i dont know where this love for u is going,but i am indulging it for now.even if it's so unbelievable.i'll just enjoy the ride!

Not alone yet lonely

2008-07-17T21:48:00.001+08:00

Thats exactly what i m feeling now. I m surrounded by a lot people,family,friends,yet i felt such a loneliness inside of me that it's taking away the real me..the real me who used to love challenges..love living life the fullest..i m once again in love n loving the feeling,but even though the deeper it gets,the loneliness still won't fade..what do u do to not feel lonely when u are alone?and what do u do when u are not alone..yet u are lonely?

Nature and such.

2008-07-14T12:41:00.001+08:00

Maybe its time i spend time with the nature.d hustle n bustle around here is beginning to sicken me way too much,more than i can bare.i think it's time i get help from world's best shrink;nature..they'd listen to my whines,sincerely laugh at my sillyness,sings to me when i m sad,n give me tranquility,without asking me to swallow prozacs..

Just feel like it..

2008-07-12T01:40:00.001+08:00

I have dcided to let go of evrythng that has anythng to do with it.i was thrilled,happy n most importantly contented with it,but i know it's too good to be true.it's going to be hard n painful,but one thing i have learnt,its worth feeling the pain now,then later when it's too late to recover.i will give a nice closure to it,with a sweet last token of appreciation.i have cried my last tears for it.it's time to end it.i am keeping part of it with me..i need it,want it,but there's only one thing i can have;memories of warmth and pleasant with it around..

The morning i lost him..

2008-07-05T07:37:00.001+08:00

I was so down when i found tett,our 'adopted' cat died.i silently got ready 4 work,n s i drove off d parking space,d silence was already deafening.i looked up when i realized the sky was unsually clear that morning..there was also a bonus;rainbow..other than sunsets,i love rainbows best.if sunsets sooth the wild waves in me,rainbow perks me up..mybe the Almighty dcided to give me a boost up,for He know a day at work that day would be hectic..maybe tett asked the rainbow for me..well,whatever the reason,i managed a smile,a chuckle with tears choked back when i remember tett's antics.i'm gonna miss that tomcat forever..thanx to the rainbow,i got to listen to my favourite songs all the way to work..with a smile!:-) hey,tett..u b good ok..wherever u might be now.~wink~

Sunset.

2008-07-01T20:55:00.001+08:00

I wish for more sunset-seeing..somehow it helps 2 sooth me..we human need time for ourselves without thnking and worrying about others..atleast for a few days..i need time to recuperate..ain't we all do at least once in our lives?

Where the road leads..

2008-07-01T20:31:00.001+08:00

Staring ahead,i knew where this particular road leads to..i can tell a few options;en.rahmat n kak som's hse,far ahead my new crib(straight ahead) or my workplace(2 the left)..but the road my life is on at the moment?cant really tell..i realized long b4 2day that i m taking d road that someone else(read: parents) chose 4 me.but i had 2 endure it 4 the sake of being a good child.and now,i realize,i need 2 head 2 the next intersection and get going with the road i should've walk on long ago.i can stil make ma folks by doing so..i have to,coz i m running outta time..my next stop;the road less travelled..by me!

Bunch of happy koreans..

2008-07-01T13:19:00.001+08:00

Snap this when i went out for an impromptu meet-up wit ab..dat was what..2 weeks ago?miss hanging out wit u beb..sory 4 d endless interupted call.will make up it 2 u.watching those koreans made me think alot.im so envious.they took time 2 go 4 holiday.get away frm d hustle n bustle..i thnk i need 2 do that too..soon..

As seen by me.h

2008-06-28T01:06:00.001+08:00

Went as high as i could today,fearing i might fall deep down soon..this time,i m honestly scared n plead for a someone to hold on to..